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Tuesday, December 01, 2009

QLC... =(

Fast approaching the quarter life mark, and I’m still going nowhere in life… really missing those carefree days when academic results were all that mattered, and when smiles came easily.

I don’t know when I stopped smiling. Happiness seems such a distant subject to me now.

Those days when I was treated like a princess, no… a queen. Little things the sweet ones around me surprised me with, just to see me smile or make me feel better.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m sticking in this relationship just because it’s the right thing to do: Get married and have kids. I really don’t think it should be this way… the “honeymoon period” has never existed. It’s pure practicality that reigns and the feeling sucks.

Perhaps that’s how my life was planned out to be… guess I can only accept my fate for now. *bittersweet smile*

Cellie went PINK! @ 9:38 PM

l o v eme l o v eme_not

Monday, November 30, 2009

"The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring."

- Shawna Waltemyer

Hmm...

Cellie went PINK! @ 11:10 AM

l o v eme l o v eme_not

Thursday, November 12, 2009

It's all about FACTS.

It's all about You.

What about Me?

What about how I FEEL?

You're the last person whom I find comfort in... it shouldn't be like this, should it?

I'm just so tired of being taken for granted. Even the strongest pillar crumbles over time.

Cellie went PINK! @ 11:27 PM

l o v eme l o v eme_not

Thursday, October 01, 2009

LaLaLa~

OMG, I must be crazy to be feeling so ecstatic at printing a document in colour!!!

But it's not surprising when you've been repressed from printing anything at work other than black and white documents on recyled paper, and micro-managed in every single aspect that you do.

Yes, it's a new beginning for me... and it WILL be a colourful one! =)

Cellie went PINK! @ 12:11 PM

l o v eme l o v eme_not

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Weary.

I was just thinking... where exactly am I supposed to go in life? It seems like there's no actual purpose nor much to look forward to.

Everyday's just a monotonous cycle of forcing self to get off the bed, drag self to work, shower, force self to sleep, and the cycle repeats itself.

Everyone else around me seems to be leading such colourful lives... travelling the world with their loved ones, having fun at work and living life to the fullest (somehow it seems most of my friends seem to be working in the happening industries like theme parks, nightspots and magazines), spending quality time with their families...

And somehow, I know deep down inside that I wanna do my Masters overseas simply because I AM SICK OF SINGAPORE - The monotony, the meritocracy, the suffocating environment.

And also because I never got the chance to study overseas, something I've always wanted to experience, but had to give up because my parents weren't willing to let me venture into a foreign land without them. (Oh yes, typically over-protective Asian parents.)

Relationship-wise, I think I've grown exponentially in the past couple of months. I've learnt that love is not the only fuel to maintain a successful relationship, in money-minded Singapore at least. I still do miss those happy times, but reality hurts far more than we think.

So now I'm trying to find my footing again, but this time, I guess there's nothing I can do except sucuumb to the fate of the average Singaporean - Work self to death, Get married, Buy HDB flat, Have kids, Grow fat and weary, Continue working self to death, DIE.

I NEED to get myself off this miserable little island. PRONTO.

Cellie went PINK! @ 12:40 AM

l o v eme l o v eme_not

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Burnout.

Am in office at this very moment, OT-ing together with the rest of the team. (Most of them anyway) Feeling totally drained and brain-dead, mentally and physically. Even going to the gym is futile cos' the body's working hard like crazy, but the brain isn't, simply cos' it's too exhausted. As good as not working out at all.

Not surprising since I haven't had a proper break away from work for the past year or so, given that with my pathetic number of days of annual leave, I've used up most of it for exams and visiting my relatives in Malaysia. (I'm always multi-tasking/ covering for people on leave/ people who've left the company etc... seriously... how much work can one single human being withstand???)

Seriously need a good loooooooooooooooooooooong break soon to find myself once again.

I can't remember the last time I truly smiled... these days I can hardly muster enough energy to even drag myself to town to have dinner with the boy.

I wonder how long 2 workaholics can survive together in a relationship. LOL. Him glued to his Blackberry, me with my mind still somewhere at work.

OK, ranting done. back to work now.

Cellie went PINK! @ 8:58 PM

l o v eme l o v eme_not

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Taking a breather.

Finally managed to breathe a little the past couple of months... Work's not as crazy as before (due to the recession), but my job scope is expanding every single day. Tons of stuff which has NOTHING to do with my original job scope, but I have to do it anyway. Can't complain much now since I guess this is gonna be the big chance I have to really clean up my resume and make an impression in the near future.

Things have changed pretty much in recent weeks, but that's a story for another time.

Anyway it's been a long while since my last post, so here a few snippets of the recent months (Though they've already been posted up on FB for some time):

27th March 2009: Dbl O Friday